Learning to understand,That a decision that life was not worth living it was something to ‘get through’ as smoothly and mindlessly as possible until we could die.

Learning to understand,That a decision that life was not worth living it was something to ‘get through’ as smoothly and mindlessly as possible until we could die. The rule had been to imperceptibly stay as non-present as possible, while going about the business of doing what we had to do to ‘survive’, to pass as human. That was a rule we learned deep, deep down.